How did I miss this?
I have replayed this over and over in my mind, how did I miss my precious Mother-in-law being sick, how did I not know, that is something that I will eventually have to let go of. This is someone one that is totally stubborn, strong willed, loving, caring, would move mountains for any of us. When did she get sick? When did this start? You see this is my 3rd family member that I have had to experience the C word with. Yes Cancer that ugly, hateful, nasty C word. It is a journey that I am on, one that was chosen for me. You see like my MIL I too, will stop and do anything for my family and she is my family-connected by her son, my husband Mike.
Mike is her baby, that teeny tiny lady had my husband. She always said that Mike was easier one she gave birth to, they fell asleep during his journey to come into this world. Mom that is one of the gifts you have given me, the gift of Mike...thank-you for him. His loves his mom too, very protective of her, I guess in many ways we all are.
Back to diagnosis a day I will never forget October 2, 2012 My sister, Nicole, Mom and I sat in a small room waiting for the doctor. It seemed like it took forever for him to come into the room, he sat down, didn't even look at my MIL, he started to draw pictures of dandelion and seeds blowing to next yard, something about the seeds are cancer cells and that hers have blown everywhere. Did I hear that right? Did he really just say that, Nicole did we hear the same thing.
Ok well now he tells us the grim of this, without treatment 3 to 5 months to LIVE! With treatment 1 year to 1 year and a half. She is in pain, but we were shuffled through the halls to one room after another. Radiation doctor, social worker, Chemo doctor. We get home and we are exhausted, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and sad, very very sad. Now what? Call the husbands, her sons and tell them...wow. How do you tell them this? With grace, just like MIL.
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